Why do I feel guilty when I am on vacation?

We have all hear it, “Don’t log in”, “Don’t check your email”, “Try to relax”. Yeah, right.

How can I relax when even after I have set my “out of office” notification, the constant chiming of the email notifications brings me anxiety and guilt for not looking and not working?

Oh, I know I need a break. I know my brain and my body are exhausted. I also know that just like everyone else, I deserve time off now and again.

However, the thought of only being gone for three days and returning to three hundred emails is a tad overwhelming.

I am at home on “vacation” during COVID-19. My original plan was to have my first vacation after landing the new job poolside in Kailua-Kona, Hawaii with a flight of Mai Tai’s at the ready. So, I have turned the heat up, put on some Hawaiian music, and found a documentary about the ocean that I am playing in the background on mute.

It. Is. Totally. Not. The. Same. (sigh)

I will make some Mimosa’s to mock the Mai Tai flight, only because I do not have the ingredients for them, and I am not interested in going to the store in my COVID mask. Oh, did I tell you, this is only day one.

I think I will nap as my head and my body are reminding me that I promised to rest during this time and are counting on me to keep to my word. It is also raining outside (go figure), so I cannot exactly take out my lawn chair and sit in the sun.

Tomorrow is another vacation day. I will be more rested and ready to figure out some activities to keep me from opening that laptop that is staring at me from my makeshift home office desk.

Ding, ding, ding…there goes three more emails into my inbox.

I think it is time for another Mimosa.

Author: peoplewrangler

HR Professional, Teacher/Trainer, and Writer passionate about human resources and helping others become the best they can be.

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